Part one: Life is too fucking busy 😵‍💫

Haiya, its been a while! ^^

This entire month is going to be/has been absolutely hectic. A lot of various things have absolutely been eating up at my time and its honestly surprising how it hasn’t completely overwhelmed me yet, and how I’m still being productive. Imma try to list the things on my plate right now:

• Preparing for school, making sure my tuition finances are in order, schedule, ADHD accommodations, etc (I just finished taking care of everything today)

• Preparing for my brother’s wedding this sunday. Both as:

  • The best man - I’ve never been to a wedding before and I have no idea what all these terms mean, maid of honor, Boutonnière        or what all these traditions mean, like what the best man is supposed to do, whats supposed to happen at the rehearsal dinner, what i need to wear, I’m pretty sure i need to give a speech but idk how the fuck a wedding speech is even supposed to sound like, etc etc.

  • As a musician; lead guitarist no less; I have some big shoes to fill xD I’m not terribly confident in my abilities just yet, because playing lead is rather new for me. And my brother wrote a song of which he performed as part of his proposal, and I need to make/perfect a guitar solo which is not easy for me. This is his goddamn wedding so I only get one shot at this, and I CANNOT AFFORD TO FUCK UP even once XD

• Getting ready to take this CompTIA A+ test before school ramps up. I’m 90% ready ATP :p

• Mentally preparing myself for school again, as its been damn near a year x3 This includes understanding how ADHD will play a role in things.

• Getting my finances in order. I’m already doing a good job so far, but I still have a long way to go. Since school’s gonna take up more of my time and money, finding more work to afford paying off my debts is gonna be a lil challenging.

• Working on my personal projects/development:

  • Building a proper server rack

  • This plush idea

  • Incorporating NFC with LUKS

  • Going more in depth with Web Development

• Working on my hobbies:

  • Graffiti Art

  • Languages

  • Furry Art

  • Being a better shot - meaning buying more ammo and guns

  • Sprucing up my website

  • Guitar, Bass, and Piano

• Working on my personal affairs and mental health:

  • Keeping up to date with my to-do list I recently made to organize everything

  • Always learning something new in general, keeping up with news

  • Understanding, learning, and developing my philosophy. This also includes how I feel about religion

  • ADHD meds & keeping up with my therapy

  • Making new friends, maintaining current ones, still making time to hang out, etc

  • Getting around to finding a romantic partner

  • Completely re-evaluating my sexual values

  • Making time to do live music at the various places I play around the city

TL;DR:

I’m doing good, albeit with a full ass plate. As for my mental health, pretty great! The vyvanse is legit doing wonders for me, keeping me optimistic and productive AS FUCK in these busy times. Going a day without meds is kinda rough though, I end up like my usual self. Like how I was in 2025 & early 2026, lazy, always tired, completely unproductive, depressed, introspective, I tend to gorge on food, etc. The suicidal thoughts also kinda creep in, but now because I KNOW Its all neuro-chemical, I just tell myself that its fake, and not to be dwelt upon.

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I mentioned I have a few projects of mine that I’m working on. Idk how imma break it down and keep everything organized, so bear with me.

Project 1: Server Rack

So basically, I wanted to make a whole new server thingy, and Its just now dawning upon me the amount of work that’ll go into this “10 minute” project of mine 😭

My plan was to build my own server rack with the various machines I have at my house, and orchestrate all the machines via kubernetes, and then implement them into my workflow, and perhaps have another PC off-site for backups.

I think I bit off more than I can chew though, for one just to rapid fire it all, here’s all the shit I’d have to research and learn just to begin planning:

• How to transition from docker to Kubernetes

• Server Racks

  • Dimensions

  • Components

  • Measuring my physical room to map out my needs

• Implementing Mounts for my various machines

• 3D-Printing Custom Mounts for my machines

• Measuring my various machines

• How to design my mounts in FreeCAD

• How to use FreeCAD

• How to fix my 3D printer

• How to power all my devices

• How to use a networked UPS

• How to implement a network switch into my setup

• How to use a network switch

• If i need just a switch, or if i go all out and get a router and/or gateway and/or WAP too

• If i do, how to make the firmware open source too

• How VLANs work

• How to safely implement all of these machines cyber-security wise to not get hacked

• How to safely access my various services from outside my LAN

• How to self-host a TailScale type setup

• Different services to host, like a NAS, VPN, local AI platform, etc.

  • I have Jellyfin and its stack, minecraft, and SearXNG, what else?

• How to implement my GPU to make a headless AI service

• Understanding the Open Web-UI/LM-Studio/Ollama combo, network security wise

• How to use an android tablet as an HDMI Display & connect that with my KVM

This is just what I have to research, now on top of all that, I gotta figure out all that I need to purchase, and Cheaply (I’m kinda broke ngl)

• The Server Rack itself

• More storage drives

• 3.5in HDD to SATA

• 3D Printing my various mounts

• PCIe M.2 Adapter

• New Keyboard & Mouse for KVM

• Mountable Power Strip

• More Machines, preferably a 1u-3u Xeon Server

• Various Power Adapters

• Adequate networking gear

• Ethernet Cables

• HDMI Cables

Project 2: Web Development

I first wanna make an online store as testing grounds, and then next take that knowledge into making an online course - one of those defensive driving type classes.

As you probably know, I did make this website on my own, I have plenty of experience making static pages that just deal with HTML, CSS, and light JavaScript. As for hosting, I understand how to build a basic web server from scratch using really any distro, running certbot for SSL, UFW and ip-tables for firewall, utilizing domains and sub-domains, and as for HTTP engines, I’ve only really played around with Apache.

For this project to work, I have a lot I need to learn next:

How I wanna make a web-dev testing environment

• What is back-end infrastructure, and what it’s used for

• Why anyone would use anything other nodejs since javascript is already standard fare for raw static pages

• What does nodejs actually do?

• How tf to use nodejs

• Whats the use-case for the different databases out there? Postgress, MySQL, MariaDB, MongoDB, Redis, Firebase, etc.

• How tf to use a database period

• How to deploy and interface nginx + nodejs + Postgress via docker compose

• What the fuck a ‘framework’ is and why people keep telling me I need one

• How to use React

• How to deploy React

• How to network the four containers

• Github?? How do I implement that with this

For real, if anyone can help me understand and set up this shit, I dunno man Ill suck ur dick or something xD

Project 3: Local-AI Powered Plushie

Basically, I want to make an easily deployable piece of software that can run on a Raspberry-Pi 0 2w, that utilizes a local LLM to interact with the user via an on-board microphone/speaker combo. Basically a “hey siri” or “alexa” type workflow, but powered via local FOSS AI. The sbc would host a lightweight distro like alpine, and would be equipped with a ‘hat’ for a battery, and one for audio. The goal is to be able to make it easily deployable and lightweight so it can run on various sbc’s, and implemented into almost any plushie out there x3 So size definitely matters alot.

After playing around with the software for a bit, I got it to kinda work, albeit really slow. After discovering theres a term for what I’m doing, which is a “STT TTS” workflow, Imma eventually get around to learning more about it and optimizing it as much as possible to reduce latency.

Project 4: NFC + LUKS

The idea is, upon booting into my LUKS enabled debian PC, i wanna be able to simply tap an NFC card on to the reader, and log in that way. This way, i can have a super long and complicated 400 character password that i can generate for extra security, but still have a method of actually being able to memorize it, since i’d use a repeatable algorithm to generate said passwords. The NFC Reader would just basically act as a keyboard inputting characters upon scanning.

I bought an NFC reader on amazon for this purpose, but it was using a serial protocol on a USB connection, and trying to get the fucker to work was alot more trouble than it was worth, so I returned it, and i’m waiting on a new one to start working on the project again.

Project 5: Various Containers

Basically i got jellyfin and it’s stack running, and it does work, but i need to play around with it and optimize it properly.

I also wanna figure out how best to do local ai in terms of LLMs. LM-studio works great, but thats really for on my machine, to use it remotely i’ve tried messing with open web ui. But that frickin app is so huge and complex its taken me a while to understand how to configure it xD

Lastly, figuring out how to make image-to-video generation run faster in ComfyUI. Im sure you can guess why that is 😏