Ive been noticing life has been really gray for me lately. I got the job ive been searching for which is nice, but I've emotionally been struggling. I still feel lonely despite being surrounded by friends who "supposedly care about me". Nobody it seems wants to talk to me or spend time with me, I feel stagnant like im wasting my life away, and that i have no one I can relate to. Even the holiday season has lost all its magic and I'm still somehow Still fawning over a particular person (you know who you are), I thought ive shaken that off but i guess not xD
Wish me luck that I have the drive to give my life some desperately needed warmth, to find the people/person i need, to persue my dreams, and to study my philosphy more thoroughly enough to dig myself out of this nihilistic depression.

Anywayyy- I feel like i wanna add some more features to my website but idk what yet. Guess im gonna have to go on a neocity rabbit hole to get some inspiration ^^