★ 12/03/2025
extocine.com but christmas themed!! Changed the images, cursour effects, and colors.
★ 12/3/25
If youre ever overwhelmed with hella shit on ur mind, make a chart!! I love to use Minder to help organize the complicated ass mess that is my head. I made a chart to map out Everything that is going on inside my head, and it allows me to tackle one issue at a time. Instead of dealing with 1000 problems at once, im dealing with 100 bite-sized problems i can tackle at my own pace.
(I dont care that this image is bitcrunched to hell, you get the point x3)
★ 12/2/25
I just had the idea of dedicating 1 day a week or so to do nothing but hone in my craft in a certain subject. Whether that be making charts of my thoughts, practicing musical scales, drawing a few dozen times, or learning a few dozen words in a new language, I can slowly creep towards perfection. Even Einstein took years to get to his level, im not gonna solve the world in a day, and i shouldn't beat myself up for not being able to solve everything at once.After binging philosophy videos on youtube, doing alot of self reflection, and talking to a person I hold dear to me, I've made the realization that everything that has ever happened to me is my fault, I am smart enough to solve these questions on my own, and if im not, i have the strength to find someone who can. Bad traits and negative feelings, trauma, all of it is in my control, i am the master of my universe so to speak. I think imma start making charts again to help organize the complicated mess that is my brain. I know the root of all my problems is the brain mind dichotomy, the biological machine vs the soul and ego that is me. Once i have complete mastery of that, ill literally be unstoppable. I really hope this newfound hope will persist ^w^
★ 12/1/25
Ive been noticing life has been really gray for me lately. I got the job ive been searching for which is nice, but I've emotionally been struggling. I still feel lonely despite being surrounded by friends who "supposedly care about me". Nobody it seems wants to talk to me or spend time with me, I feel stagnant like im wasting my life away, and that i have no one I can relate to. Even the holiday season has lost all its magic and I'm still somehow Still fawning over a particular person (you know who you are), I thought ive shaken that off but i guess not xD
Wish me luck that I have the drive to give my life some desperately needed warmth, to find the people/person i need, to persue my dreams, and to study my philosphy more thoroughly enough to dig myself out of this nihilistic depression.
Anywayyy- I feel like i wanna add some more features to my website but idk what yet. Guess im gonna have to go on a neocity rabbit hole to get some inspiration ^^
★ 11/5/25
Adding myself to a webring and made a gif for myself 
★ 11/03/25
This site is gonna be a perpetual work in progress I see x3
Every time I browse other websites I get the urge to incorporate cool shit into this one. Tonight i think imma work on adding cursour effects, a new song, and possible other goodies. I also wanna figure out how to set something up where whenever I update my self-hosted site, tne neocities version also gets the same update
★ 10/30/25
On hallow's eve, decided to add more to the website! Finally added a proper blog section, and the guestbook below for people to stop by and say something (yes i read all the messages). Slowly building my lil slice of heaven on this godforsaken internet that we have in the 2020's.
★ 08/26/25
Still dealing with Nihilism, Procrastination and Finances. I'm in a better state of mind and am currently taking steps to further improve my psyche. Still learning more on a personal philosophical journey... Still updating the website! Just added a files page, a discord page and a secret ad page too >w>
★ 08/02/25
no im not okay
★ 7/21/25
I decided to revamp my website to fit a 2000's frutiger aero theme after taking inspiration from several neocities! (This website is the neocities version, go here for the self-hosted version).
If you wanna see what the origial page looked like, click here
Hii, this is my blog section x3
This lil section is where I share casual updates about the website and myself.
You should add me to ur site!
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